hey guys, my name is steph. can i tell you a story? within one month my whole life has changed. a month ago i was doing more drugs than most people can name. i was smoking around a pack of cigarettes a day. i was falling behind in classes and i didn’t care. i was giving my heart to numerous guys in hopes that maybe if i slept with them they’d like me. i had low self esteem and ever lower self want. and then i met this guy, and i thought he’d be another one night stand break my heart goodbye. but he didn’t. it’s about to be a month later. i haven’t done any hard drugs within three weeks, and i haven’t smoked weed in 11 days. i’ve gotten my cigarette content down to 3 or less a day, and i’m going to be quitting them soon. i worked with my professors to get my grades not only passing but to C’s, and one is an A. i gained some self esteem because he calls me beautiful everyday. i smile and i mean it. i haven’t tried hurting myself either. now i’m not saying this guy changed my life. he didn’t walk in and tell me i had to do this. he’s not even the reason why. what did he do? he told me he accepted me no matter how i was because he fell in love with me and my flaws. that he wasn’t going to try changing me whatsoever. and when i told him i was going to change my life around, he helped when i asked, and didn’t butt in otherwise. i fell in love with him, and it only took two weeks. two weeks later and i still mean the words i whispered to him as i was falling asleep in his arms. i never thought i’d feel this way about someone, ever. and i mean that. i didn’t date before him and i almost didn’t say yes to him because i didn’t date and because i had only met him three days prior. it’s only been a month but my whole life has changed. do you see that smile on my face in the picture? that’s because of HIM. i was going out on a date and he made me feel like the prettiest girl on this goddamn planet. he always does. he never lets his eyes wander onto another girl, and mine haven’t fallen off his. i love his face, his smile, his eyes, his heartbeat sounding through my ears as i fall asleep on his chest. he never curses, he never gets angry, and whenever we argue it’s from play fighting and we end in laughs. i make him breakfast and he makes me a sandwich and when i think of him i always sigh and a smile forms on my face. i want to spend every second with him and i think it’s kind of lame and i’m scared he’ll get bored or leave or hate me. it’s what i’m used to and it’s never that. i swear he’s like my very drug and i love to get a daily dose and it’s this roller coaster kind of rush every single time our lips touch and he leaves me breathless. and that’s where the story stops.
it simply took a month. and in two days, he’ll not only be my one month, but the first guy to ever last this long in my life. and i hope he stays, because i won’t let go.